Saturday, March 11, 2006

The Joy of denial

Today I woke up with a sense of joy. I wonder if it is because I have just finished the first week of the Lenten Fast (as an Orthodox Christian). I am reading a book called "Great Lent" by Alexander Schmemann. What I have taken away from this book so far is that we are not simply to deny ourselves by not eating certain foods, but we are creating a space for God to work in our lives. A return to the state of closeness to God that Adam and Eve felt before they separated themselves from God.

Not eating meat makes me hungry. And not being able to fill that void makes me more hungry. The hungry space is the place I create for God, attempting to focus on something other than the daily chores of life.

So is this the joy that I feel this morning? I'd like to think so.

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